Man In the Mirror - Micheal Jackson

I have weird dreams. Yesterday I had a dream that my parents had adopted a bunch of kids, one of them being Briana. I distinctly recall telling her that if she touched me, I would punch her. I'm a bad person like that. No, I am not threatening her. That was just a dream in which she had taken up residence in my room and she was being incredibly annoying. Mostly poking me a lot.

I haven't slept in my own room in about two weeks. For all intents and purposes, I have moved into Justin's room. He assures me he is alright with this. I hope so because dammit, I like him too much and if he breaks up with me, I'm not sure what I'm gonna do. Mostly just be very upset I guess. I don't depend on him for happiness but he does make me very happy so losing him would make me sad. MY biggest fear is turning into Caro. She is awesome and I love hanging out with her but shes incredibly needy and paranoid. She loves Mike so much but she is incredibly controlling so its sad that she might drive him away.

Somewhere Over the Rainbow/What A Wonderful World - Israel Kamakawiwo’ole

I love this song...

Its been a good week. Apologies for missing class on Monday.

I feel like I've grown up some. Dunno. I'm in a relationship thats actually going really well. I was able to get my meds taken care of AND get ready for next month.

I want so much to happen right now. Rainbows, butterflies and small woodland creatures need to appear just to make a point. I have more hope for the year than I ever have before. And I'm waiting for something terrible to happen.

Jinxed myself of course *knocks on wood*

Ach. Love this song soooo much! Reminds me of a lot of fun times. I should make Justin listen to it. I think he would like it.


<3 IZ


She looks like a pretentious snot...

(last bit referring to an obnoxious girl in our class)

Dear Mama - Tupac Shakur

I hate the rain sometimes. Of course the one day that I don't have my umbrella or jacket is the day it decides to start pouring down. That was my own fault though, staying at Justin's. But it was worth it I think.

So I guess I don't hate the rain. Maybe its more about how inconvenient it can be sometimes. Its pretty though. And its nice to walk in. But when its cold, it sucks.

Bleh